About the racing in my life

Actually i dunno who is the competitor in my life.....my life is like very rush and always imagine that a lot ppl wan to race with me...

this is not considered PERASAN or over high imagination....i think i got a weird disease called illusion....yer...so scary oh..hahaha...but dun worry my fren....i am normal.

Sometimes i m thinking, y am i so KiaSu....everyday race with my own imagine competitor, why? Until the day I get my result, i know i lose liao, not lose to anyone, but lose to myself.

I always scare I will lose, and now i get the lesson from my failure --> It wont cause me to death even if I lose, and actually I am my own competitor, so stupid, now only I realise. The fact is, actually i am only racing wif myself, without target, without destination, racing alone on the road, until i forgot my God, my family, my frenz and even myself.....Who am I?

I everyday scare I will lose, so i make my own life like a racing, race for nothing, until i commit back to God after i backslide for many years already....thanks God.....Now, I know not scare of anything, I know that now even if i race, i run for God. A race for God......this is the best target, destination that i ever have in my life, and the reward is eternity.....

This time, I m not alone, haha....coz Jesus will run wif me, even if i tired, he will angkat me to run, even if i sad, he will lend me his cloth for me to clean my pi ti....so gooooood......

Now, no destination racing will end today, yet He is still ever present, start another racing for Him, bowing my head, I start to pray....